Lyricist - Author, Poet Suzanne Mondoux - SONGS / POEMS OF THE DAY November 2020

It’s not worth trying, so give it up No one will stop me from this No matter what you say or do to me, I must go I’m tangled in the night no where to go but towards the moon

I’m made of the stardust forever in the light of the night Tangled in the night I seek the place where we first met Looking for all possibilities to return me to you No one can see but me where I am meant to be Tangled in the night of our first kiss, I seek forever

Can’t you see this is the only way to be, tangled in the night of you and me I know the sun will rise and I must see the light of day I watch the world wake up and rise to their feet In so many words I know that it’s the way you say it must be Tangled in the night when our souls became one

We were made of stardust leading us to the moon and never to return Back to this place where the world turns and all continues as it was Never noticing the changes in our heart and our souls Was this meant to be Was this written in the stars for you and me And what about the changes in love

Tangled in the night of our embrace I live here Tangled in the night beneath the starry sky Moonlit smile Tangled in the night a place where life began I like this place more than words can express I’ll give of all me to return to this place

Tangled in the night where we saw the sun at night and the moon cuddled next to it Take all the pieces of me and make what you wish of it But let me be in the end in the tangled of the night where I live

Within the vessel I find myself confined I look out the tiny window for a glimmer of light I drift in the sea from coast to coast A mirror reflection from which I came shines back at me An ocean of memories lingers in my dreams I was alive somewhere once I know this from the mirror reflection smiling back at me

At night I watch the glitter of life swirling around me The moon cast a glitter of life in the sea I read by this light, I live for this moment, in my vessel My books are a mirror reflection of a world I dream and dream Mirror reflection of my fantasies echo my hallucinations I never know if I’m in a nightmare or if I left a nightmare To live somewhere other than in reality imposed on me

Mirror reflection of the sequence of events Some vague, some all too clear I delight in a trance of little expectation of my hopes and dreams I rush to the ending so I can drown in my daydreams Mirror reflection of all my delusions What a fantastic place

In my defense for what I’m about to say Let me be and watch me rise beyond your imagination Let me be and watch me live with my species Watch me – animal being in this world of complicated existence No need to live such complications Who decided these and watch me decide my existence For which fading dreams do you strive for, while designing my destruction How can you try to right the wrongs of your choices How can you watch me and watch yourself apart from one another Those fading dreams of your own existence without me, animal being How can this be so How do I try to live or die in this fantastic dream of your human dream without me Watch me be the leader instead of the pretender of all life in existence for one another Or do you leave me to dream all alone as animal being for both you and me What can you conceive to be our world Stop clowning around with your ideas and see the opponent you’ve created You are your own worst enemy, the master enemy of your existence Watch me as an ally – I am Animal Being

I sing to you my opera of all tragedy Soon the symphony will follow Join the masquerade party and perform with me My opera of all magical drama in existence You’re just fooling around with me on this stage of life You have fooled me once, and more than thrice So I love being your fool, my opera At curtain call I lay my head on your lap I surrender all that I am and leave you my soul My opera, my greatest love of all love Our tragedy exquisite in every way The pain sublime, I would have it no other way My opera, I lay at your feet for the rest of my life You hold my death in your delicate hands I waste no time to see my way through our suffering The house is full, all eyes on you My opera, I surrender

It was all about seducing me into submission for one night The lust you splashed all over me with your smile and glittering eyes I fell head over heels for you in that instant Even though I knew it would be one night I loved you then and I love you still The magic of that one night, I never felt so alive Thanks to you I know what it’s like to feel without fear To express without judgement And to love the way I feel good about me All it took was one night in your gentle arms That one night saved my life Everything you said you meant Every tear I shed I meant In that one night you broke open my heart Never shall I return to the constraints of my caged existence

Now the wind blows over my decaying body I take care to look at the world from a place I’ve never been before But I know it is where I belong However, too soon it seems, I can say the angels owe me Even though they stand by my side, always with me The angels owe me for the time gained and the time lost The angels owe me for the wisdom they imparted onto me The angels owe me for the glory of a good death Never shall I know differently going forward And then there may be no going forward from where I now see I lay here in my decay of self I wonder how I will transform myself into the new Into a world I know no more The angels owe me for taking me away from the evil of my existence The angels owe me for the love they showed me, never had I known Now I lay in pain, memories of a suffering soul

It’s been a long time I’ve seen the beginning of us I’m just a man in love with no where to go Taking you away has been the tragedy of all tragedies It’s our way to have been so in love It’s been a truth of all truth Taking you away does not shatter my memory of us I know you watch over me and kiss me goodnight Taking you away left splints in my heart Can they ever be removed Do I want them removed – is this pain me, us now Can I shed such a day into something new, less fragmented What can my heart conceive Taking you away – I want to follow Taking you away – the remnants of our love hurts too much to feel my loneliness I now live on my own No where to go – where to I go next I go crazy – taking you away – why Why

Command of love had fall to you With me everywhere and you there Hiding in the shadows from streaking arrows You rallied us through the way of love

We had come to the end of our rope No throwing words to hurt The way of love written on the stone wall Seeing me unscathed, you watched through the way of love

You saw it was time to let me go Taking aim over the steady life of pain we lived I went before the crowd in the way of love As I lay dying fitting for life All gave way in the way of love

All grew with their strength intact And I turned to the crowd in the way of love C’est la vie to live and die in the way of love We were struck by the silent of the crowd With their eyes on one another All whispered The way of love

In time when you say you love me It will soon be over Whose great fame a world could not ignore The clash between words and sticks and stones Lay me down where you see fit I struggle no more in your made up world Our quarrels told by mobs Read the legacy of a heroine Remarkable she was Lay me down where you see fit I cross the portal of ashes and angles Some days with you were glorious, others too grim to shed tears Search deep into my soul and find me here Lay me down here My song has come to a pause Split my shadow for you to step on The other half to skip over Lay me down in between Born at the right time, or too soon for such a world It seems timing was the gift to my fame Lay me down where I began Where I’m released deep into my soul No longer a made up character of this world

And the Great War ended Many dead at my feet Many shedding tears of joy Today I remember my friends Above I see the world today I was one of the many cold and dying Alone with my face in the mud I listened to the end to the cries of my friends Together we walked into the light Above I see the world today Together we look at what became of you The generations of those who shed tears of joy Above we see the world What great wars you face What great fears you continue to create What chance at peace you ignore What chance at uniting the human race you fear Above I see the world And the Great War ceases to end Please explain Please raise your hands in peace Lay down your arms and silence your screams Above I see the world As it ought to be We the fallen wait with love and peace in our hearts Above we see this world

What is the destiny you see for yourself What’s been the best part of your life Was it a life made in heaven or hell At least you get to decide The lake at my feet, I saw for me I saw it fit to walk in and see where it took me Sometimes I sunk, sometimes I walked on water It was my choice Made in a heavenly place for me to see I was where I was meant to be And what was meant to be, the lake at my feet, just for me Heaven on earth My paddle at my side, I directed my course into eternity No need to die to reach the heavens The starry sky above the lake, a reflection of my mind As many possibilities as the stars starring back at me And there I was – the lake at my feet, just for me Just for you if you make it so It’s all written in the stars, if you write your own story The lake at me feet Now that’s a great beginning

So the lesson learned I stand here before you Before me I see the purpose of such a will Catch me when I fall And shall stand strong Catch me in my errors And I shall forever remember your kindness Catch me with love And I shall always know love And know how to love

It’s been a long time since I felt your touch Sometimes good, sometimes not Knowing where to start with you and me is undeniably difficult Let me go to see what can be I’m caught in between us Let me go to see what can be better said between us We never listened to each other Love was always fleeing with us Let me go to see if a seed of love remains What if us was never a fading dream, but real Let me go to see if we can find our way back to each other I’m in love with the us I imagined Let me go to see if there is more to this dream Otherwise, how do we continue to live this life as we keep shedding our tears Lets pretend all is well in this letting go of me and you Let me go for the love of you and me For the love of us that we know was once there

I was but a single and last soul on this earth I sing to me and to the wind I paint a world I imagined could have been so great It might have been better said that not enough love was sought I call out to the wind Hold me close and carry me away I’m caught here on my own to see the end of all that ever was Hold me close for I can’t stand this silence on my own How can any of this be change I’m found with my feet in the sand gazing at the sea All life is gone The water is lonely The air is grieving The ground is hurting Hold me close to what remains as I drift away

Now even as I pray I watch this world go by My knees buckle, my fingers grip one another With swollen throat from my screams Just love me in the simplest way Forget the deadly images you portrayed onto me Draw in with breath inspiring the stirring of love in you Let the estuaries of this world rise and shine Just love me with a single kiss on a single blooming peddle Smell the roses around you And the life beneath this earth murmur back into our world Just love me in your cold and fatigue manner and expectation of all Let go of your ideas and ideals that serve everything but you Best of you is still to come, in one simple step Let the rivers flow and the ice glow Just love me in the warm sunlight and cool night sky And rake with your hands the path that leads you home It is enough to save our economy But first in the interwoven branches of the tree of life Watch the fresh branches spark alive should the end strike Distress this world and forever you will be forgotten

I can’t do it for it will cost you your life Let me be the way to my own death I will live in a manner that displeases you, no doubt I will find the power of my mind into the upmost destruction Let me be my guardian angel to a life that goes on and on And forgive me when I ask where you belong Is it all in the hands of the Gods to live such a life A life of will for the sake of your own salvation My salvation is in my hands, so let me be as I may be Take no time to decipher what is right and wrong You know already for you Let me be in the la la la world I created I don’t like the one you left me with I’ll have recreated all of creation to exist here Be careful where you leave your crumbs for me I may find them all Or I may not know they are there There is no reason for you to leave me a better world There is every reason for you to live in a better world Let me be the one who decides what world I’m left with

Oh what have you done Now in the dread of your life Tackled by your greed What have you done To be taken from my life into a cage It’s what you’ve done with pride and joy Poor soul to be in such pain If you should come away from your arrogance Let us meet one day where the sun shines on us We breath the fresh air of the wild And we run together side by side To be taken for human content, pleasure and entertainment I wipe your tears I’ll carry you until you can stand on your own To be taken to feed your family I say to those who put you here I cry for you, my soul reaches out to you I see you in all that you are, your fear, your pain To be taken to cut off my head You carry my scars deep within you Forever you carry me in your heart A lifetime of horror for me and you I’m a prisoner dead and alive, I’m all around you To be taken – know I shall never surrender to you No matter what you see – I let you see what I decide To be taken to those who believe they have dominion over me Even though I bleed where the chains crush my limbs You bleed more than me Face the world of your satisfaction What’s on your mind It’s is your soul you are breaking To be taken – what have you done

I weep where you left me What you want me to be is not ever real I live in the space you made for me You allowed me to breath for your pleasure There’s no meaning in this existence you created for you You allowed me to breath to see you in your glory You had to chance it in your long strides to your ivory tower Made of me I housed you and your family There’s no ending what you desire for you alone And there’s no pretending what will be You allowed me to breath as you gaze at your jewels There is no revenge where I come from or where I’m going The only revenge is amongst those you live The passengers of your journey rush to jump on this train The step over one another and the mighty crush the weak You allowed me to breath just long enough to raise your value You allowed me to breath again and again until there’s nothing left You allowed me to breath as a symbol of your freedom Of which you know nothing about freedom, for you have created this world Freedom is an unknown to such a world with dominion over others Unknowingly, you allowed me to breath just long enough for you to reach your end

Mine alone is what the alerts of my life will signal Follow your shadow the Gods say, to where the Gods take me I’ll see what they want me to see in the mist There’s meaning in the life of the shadow before me The passage to the entry of the room with the door open Go forward and follow your shadow, is whispered Through this glow of stronger pull I say yes With the fool at my side, me I like where I’m going Follow your shadow backward and forward Be clever in each step and stumble when necessary Follow your shadow onto the tight rope Awake when the wobble springs you to the ground It’s all the reason for living in following your shadow No one else to blame for all the facts of life I encounter Every chance is for the best Crash or whatever…go forward and follow your shadow

Under the shooting stars the raiders of our cities linger The branches of the trees fall apart all around us I like you and my hand reaches out I know there is more in your soul then what’s not spoken I surrender to this fantasy of a moment Calmly I walk this world with ground crumbling beneath my feet No one ever told me when I came here humans would hurt me so much Hurt themselves so much I like you thought because it’s better then the alternative The sentimental being that I am I know you are the same I asked to explore this world in human form And to my surprise I have never experienced so much love To my surprise --- you play with it You abandon it You toy with it But I like you for you are human and I am not, only temporary I shall return home soon But I will always remember the human in you I like you When I talk of you, I’ll talk of love I’ll engage the conservation I’ll illustrate the beauty of your being We hope one day you will return to you --- the human being your were meant to be How and why you were create is of no matter We like you Do you like you

In time will shores of this world continue to see the sea Will the pair of birds fly above of our heads And will the sheep feed on the grass in the open field And at the end of the day will you come to the dance Will anybody come Will there be anybody left to come dance with me I’ve turned away and the muse of this world now alone Singing songs of heroes come and gone Foretold by every being that walked this earth Come to the dance just as you are No king and queen here Just you the people and animal beings of this world Every secret revealed in the waltz of life And you discover there is not time left And this life you live now drifting away You believed life for the human being would be forever You learned in that sweet moment that you’ve used up all your chances Come to the dance and lay your head on your partner Wrap your arms around a stranger Here love will live or die Come to the dance and hear the whispers of the crowd Languish in the anguish you created Feel the extreme deprivation so well choreographed Come to the dance in denial or vows of promise Acknowledge what’s been done State of poverty for all Come to the dance to end your days Together you waltz to your grave

This hard shot in time left us with little to no time No place for us remains Will live in the remnants in the mockery we made of this world The queen in me distinguished as I was In my divinity I wanted to live forever The clear tone of my voice And the stones over my grave I faced the world knowing I must die The queen in me ruling a wasteland of corps No more tears to water the flowers This world touched our lives without any giving back Believing we could all live forever For ever in the dreams Never in the reality you created The queen in me lips wet from the blood on her lips Life draining from my soul The punctuation of our existence In the human being last breath They quake in their own light Wander in their darkness Calling out to what they denied all their lives Save me The queen in me bows down to the humans of this world Humans lived this life knowing none of us truly wanted to be saved Instead, humans wanted to conquer

And there the tide washed me up Outside of this place, a world no longer on level ground In the heap of the dead and dying When all was laid down in peace The Goddess out there slipped through without notice And in the mist of the sea breeze Many hearts cried out – what about love The Goddess out there unlocked the gates of the prison cells The hearts rose at the clink of the chains Singing in the distance the voices of Beings The signs and visions of a life, of life resounded Amidst the unfamiliar face of a new world The Goddess out there called out Who wants to live Who wants to love Who dares to die without life, without love The Goddess out there raised her hand to the world The lightning strike without the flame The winds and cyclones without ravishing the earth The Goddess out there rising from the underworld The eyes of tomorrow on her The world from a bright flash anew

I test the bow of love I can’t stand on my feet I find the doorway to the next step Far away I see the way I treasure the lay of the land I take home all that I have I stay in my double vision The arrow is in the quiver I walk far way in a day I reach my deathbed Far away in my dreams I loved this world The blue sky The raging sea The wild herds All grasping for a bit of life now Far away this world In a polished world you recognize many You recognize yourself Far away you are declaring all is well Shouting this is how we must survive Far away you glimpse through the crack You send an arrow through the iron gate Beautiful its glow Ashes rain down on a remembered world Far away a world once known Far away more pieces dismantled Far away no more command of this world Far away we see a glimmer of hope to live in this world

All stopped and the shields were up No one could stand on their feet They spent their life believing in something else The combat of self and the willingness to deny So gracious was their exit in a forever goodbye Someone sang out goodbye Find you somewhere else Everyday you tried to fake your way At least you reach oblivious You wore the guise of a willing human being Now you appeal to the something other there Goodbye is what’s on your path Forever goodbye Your extinction How inevitable How blind you were So much for the iron hand of diplomacy For economic growth For dominion over all Beings Goodbye to this world No one left to blame

In time there was a reason for such decisions No quarrels for such existence All foretold from the mouths of the many Yet no tears for what was to come Down the rabbit hole humanity continued No songs came to mind and no tears could be found The skilful tongues spread the word of the new world No tears amongst the whispers of tomorrow No tears of a taut harp at many fingertips Upon the banquet of the dead Cups raised for the conquering heroes A pause in the silence No tears, not notice of a vanishing world

So they say there’s no time left for us What you once felt was but a dream No more existence in this world So they say there’s no chance for us No land set aside for us We shall never dream again of living forever So they say we dare not attempt to save ourselves The assembly of human beings have spoken, they say But let them foregather in their festival of dominion over others Without today, without us, wandering this earth is not for tomorrow So we say, without us, animal being of this world

Friends always on this earthly plane Despite your bargain made You went back on your word Showing your golden chains strung around your pride Friends always in this animal kingdom Even though the senate hinges on our destruction Friends always animal being for human being You continue to display bewilderment of unconditional love Even though the lanes of our existence grows dark And as our presence descends from your fatal blows Friends always no matter how far from home you take us The ripples of our existence can never truly be extinguished We live in your memories Each one of your tears is a reminder of you, of us The hunger you’ll experience will be all you Yet friends always leaving our footprints So you can find us Friends always animal beings Human beings, we’ll be here at the dawn of your existence

And the worst happened The wind couldn’t sweep away the pain Nothing else was needed No more money could be needed There was no more tomorrow All drifted away The marketplaces were empty The hungry hands cramped No more money could fix the illusion Everyone knew what was in store No one left to hold No one left to hold them No more money between the lies No more money to sway the mighty No more money to take a last breath No more amazing feelings of greed All clung to the grimly ledge of existence The dangerous depth of the sea rose The blue sky darkened The fowl air burned No more money whispered could save us