Lyricist - Author, Poet Suzanne Mondoux - SONGS / POEMS OF THE DAY August 2020

I was standing on the edge of the cliff I heard a car driving singing out loud a rock n roll song I turned to follow the sound The car parked at the look out point Echoed the rock n roll song I stepped off the ledge

On that morning rock n roll rescued my soul I followed the music and there he was sitting behind the wheel in his fancy convertible He looked up at me and smiled I smiled back with a tear in my eye Turn up that radio was all I said He leaned over and said jump in I jumped into the rock n roll

He asked me what I was doing all the way out here Someone was killed here and I came to say goodbye I didn’t know I could be rescued Rescued by rock n roll driving by Until this moment I was someone else who thought had to die Nobody knows this but me

I walked a fine line between life and death in the light of single life Quiet and alone and unknown by many ‘Til I was rescued by this rock n roll song So fine the song I’ll keep a close watch now on this life of mind Never to be rescued again

In this rock n roll band the angels sing Rescued by the singing angels Rock n roll rescuing a single soul He asked me if I wanted to stay Lets go and crank up the radio

When all the life has been kicked out of me You pointed at me so savagely at the life we had All that was left were the ashes you scattered at my feet I never knew you had it so bad Breaking your heart was not my dream But breaking my heart seems to be yours

Hmm, baby how could I have been so wrong about you, about us You’re breaking my heart in so many ways Never did I know one could feel so much pain Being in such despair never crossed my mind, my heart Where did I go so wrong with us

You’re breaking my heart for the first time but how divine How painful the words you say to me Breaking my heart you do so well There are no more tears left in me Can’t you see what you’re doing

Hmm, baby how could I have been so wrong about you, about your love for me All the dreams we shared, and the ones we talked about Was breaking my heart so divinely one of them How could I have not known Oh, my love you’re breaking my heart Please stop with the ugly words

Now I see how much you hurt, the pain you feel But baby, my love, I am not the one who caused you such pain Why are you breaking my heart for the pain you feel Breaking my heart is not the way out I hear you scream I see you cry How can we go on like this, so ugly we are like this

Hmm, baby could I have been so wrong Show me it isn’t so I’ve seen your heart, I know what you’re made of I’ve felt your love, I’ve seen and felt all of your sadness Breaking my heart my love is not the way out

They say it will be alright this coming and going There is still love there, so it’s not over yet Once before we’ve packed our bags and went our separate ways As much apart we were, as much together we were Together again you and me Twice you and me, twice lucky, this time forever

Twice you and me for keeps this time Are we really staying together Why did we part from one another What do we see different time Twice you and me Why do we think it will work this time

You and me, we said these words before You and me, we played these roles before Twice you and me Is it because of our greatest fear of being alone Is it because of our greatest fear of being loved Twice you and me, is it a new life to live

What of the past, the things we’ve said and done to one another What of the future, can we really let go Twice you and me just for today Together you and me looking into the crystal ball for new memories When twice you and me, can we really be new, live our dreams

Never two days the same, is this our good luck, our chance at you and me Twice you and me, is this the trick, one day at a time Let go of each others expectations Instead embrace one another like when we were new lovers Twice you and me as new lovers is the better place to be

You say you love me over and over again This time you say you really mean it It’s not your words I need, it’s your love I need You say one thing and you do another What is love to you

What is love to you What is love to me Never does it meet in the middle You stray, I stay You beg forgiveness, I give it You hold me, I cry

What is love in your heart Can you feel my love for you Do you want my love I always give it to you so freely What is love in our misery

Is it true what we say to each other Is it true, I am, what is love to you I’m your everything you say What is love for you and me What is love you keep from me

I feel I’m the stranger of the two There’s no me in our us What is love lingering between us Always in reach, but never touching What is love with us

Never have I seen it Never have I felt it How much I want to You say I am what is love for you Help me know this is true What is love for me and you

It’s so easy to see what they’ve done now How things were and what was what This little street where I roamed In this small town once called home How things were when I was here I was so young when I met my grave

The angry hand that put me there I roam the house where I once lived I see the story play over and over again How sad they were those that put me in my grave Take me back to my grave where I can sleep now No more unrest, no more questions

Take me back to my grave and leave them at peace Their sin is done, forever this is where they will be I want to rest in my dreams Take me back to my grave and let me rest I wait for them with open arms They too have died, in prison their soul remains

I wish different for me so please take me back to my grave No more walking down dark halls No more standing over the living weeping on their knees Their deed is done and there’s no returning for me I wait patiently Take me back to my grave

I’m always home alone And when I see you walking by I turn away and close the blinds And peek through the cracks I stay hidden so afraid you’ll find me out

I’m no place alone I fear you’ll turn away I watch you walk by You’re my sunrise and my sunset

What if I step out and you see me there I’m ugly, I’m the beast next door I live behind my scars No place alone where it’s called home

Only tears to dreams what could be So no place alone in this dreary castle next to yours Do you even know I exist No place alone in this paradise Standing at the window in the shadow

I watch you laugh with your friends No place alone where you would want to be with me The flower at your door each morning, that’s me Have you ever seen me, I wonder I’m the beast next door, the scars are my face No place alone is for me and not us

Seems like it would be a long time before I step out into the sunshine My time is lonely, alone in this place called paradise My castle next to yours, with no prince next door No place alone for only the beast I wish one day you could see me

He broke off the look when I looked his way With his unpleasantness he will release me Never to be found again, in an unknown place He will search, and generously provide a finders fee

No words can comfort the ills he’s done I look forward to what comes after him I’m no man’s property, no man’s prize A generous finders fee is what he’s made of me

No sparing his honour or his pride I run and hide, a foreigner of my society I become I appeal to his friends, they too turn away A finders fee is what I’m worth

Many want to collect, a few more want me dead instead And they give me away for a slice of bread Who could be the beggar of life, me or them I beg no more, a finders fees is what I’m worth

I know there’s a road ahead, I dare to take it I dare to know my own strength I dare to be more than his finders fee No matter how hard or unpleasant it can be I’m a prophet of my own life

I seek the right to live my life No more appeal to live my life I walk amongst the many other women with a finders fee on their heads We spare ourselves of the dreary honour laid upon our souls A finders fee I pay myself for the life I live no more

Release me from this bondage of the life created for me Let me live my life as I see fit Can’t you see the struggles you created Get some relief from knowing there’s joy in living life

Free me from the anxiety you seek You say it’s normal, this way of life There’s respite in each breath you take It’s a new moment to seek some relief Relief can be felt when you make it your normal

Factor the end of your anxiety in the life you live Can you see this possibility The reprieve of a new normal of day to day life Relief can be seen in your face, in your day to day smile

What a stark contrast for creating a diversion Relief from your belief that life is a struggle How so, whose made this true for you Aid to those in need of some relief Start with you, liberate yourself

Replace your fears with relief Liberation from the siege you placed yourself in Be your work of art Relief can be worn on your sleeve Felt in your heart

It’s a rainbow kind of life Rain no more the shadows of the lives come and gone Way up high above the clouds is where you will find me Rain no more on my soul of every blinded colour Wish upon me for my dreams is how it will be

Rain no more over the rainbow In all its glow is where you will find me Rain is needed for the colours of my souls But rain no more despair for me to grow

In light and love in the glow of the rain is where I grow Rain no more tears for me to see clearly who I am What a delight to see me in my new reflection Oh, I see

Trees and flowers bloom all around in the rain of no more pain Big white clouds let go their teardrops I open my arms to rain no more hate on me and you When you’re ready join me in the rain no more that keeps you apart from you

How do you do my new friend colours of the rainbow I think to myself rain no more parting contrast of despair Keeping us apart from one another, what does that make of you and me Rain no more colourless rainbow

So long the days and lonely nights They take me to the darkest places The moment you disappeared Since then I’ve never seen the light of day Only felt the cool wind on my face

The laces you left on edge of the bed They are still there waiting for you But you went away so far away into the stars And sometimes I see you walking by

I let the cool wind wash over my face Reminds me of you, your gentle kiss The heavens took you away all for themselves To leave me alone in a way I’ve ever known

The cool wind of you on my face is all I know I remember it so well The many ways you kissed me The many ways you held me

The Gods are lucky to have you all to their own They let me see you here and there But you’re everywhere in this house and where we walked every day The cool wind of you on my face is all I know

Lead me to where you are I want to be with you to remain in the love that we are Our children cry out so I must stay So painful my alone with the cool with of you on my face

Light of the wind Something easy to feel Go somewhere briskly with ease Accomplish your desires easily

I’m the ocean breeze on your back Take to me easily and let me help you along the way No need to struggle through your dreams Let my gust of wind lift your feet

Ease into the draught A cold burst of wind, a swig of lightness Drink the ocean breeze to help with the heavy loads And let me guide the depth of your ship below the surface of the water

My whisper is the puff of air you hear here and there Close to your ear, straight into your heart I’m the ocean breeze you seek Your lightness of foot on your journey ahead

Light wind in the heat of the sun Gentle wind on your knees before your God Come and go in your dreams light hearted Breeze on knowing all is alright

I’m that cool breeze that blows your hair around and rustles the leaves I see how you feel I feel the sound you love to hear I move you along with your feet on the ground

I’m the ocean breeze that moves you I’m your musical instrument that breaths through you Sing to me the flow of you in your space I want to hear the song your sing

I’m the air who carries your voice Plays your instrument I’m your ocean breeze I’m the feeling you seek

So many times I saw you sitting at the end of the bar I stayed on my side and watched you sip your wine You swayed in your seat to rhythm and blues One night you went to the dance floor and danced alone I watched you move I knew then you were my chance at love

The band vanished behind you You parted the sea with a gentle pivot You’re all I could see You’re all I could dream You were my chance at love

The lights grew dim and music slowed My chance at love came with a dance I put out my hand and you followed my steps In that moment I embraced my chance at love

We danced all night It was last call You sipped your wine And let me walk you home I knew you where my chance at love

So many years have gone by You are my chance at love Each day I watch you from morning to night You’re in my arms Each day I know my chance at love

I didn’t know what I was waiting for until you walked by I caught a glimpse of what I wanted more A lightning more right through my heart I changed my ways and waited for you to walk into my life again

You changed me into something I didn’t know could go I turned a page for the lightning bolt Oh ya baby it felt so good I want some more Now you’re always on my mind But I’m not worried I know I’ll see you again

Hmm, oh ya baby you’re my lightning bolt I love the way you move Soon you’ll walk down my street I get to feel you’re lightning bolt all over again You can stop any train

The leaves tremble when you walk by All eyes on you so fine you are The birds in the trees sing out loud You’re our lightning bolt Give us some more of your beauty

Once my friend, now my wife You showed me how love could be Forever my lightning bolt But better yet I love your goodness How kind you are So gentle your touch to all life

I love the sound of your footsteps and your laughter I know you’re nearby The lightning bolt of love and goodness arrives I rise to my feet and bow to the love of my love

I want to be where you want to be I want to see what you want to see You’re my best friend A friendship love of you and me You’re my heart and my soul

I love this life with you and me Sometimes we don’t see each other for a very long time Sometimes we don’t talk for a very long time But I always know you’re there with me I feel you You’re my friendship love

A love that no other can ever replace That no other who loves you and me would want to replace A friendship love with you is a walk in the park A garden of wild flowers A great wine And a joy of my life

You’re the laughter I feel in my heart The hand that wipes my tears The arms that hug my soul You’re a friendship love of a life I want to live No matter our troubles No matter our sorrows Our friendship love knows it all

I know when you think of me I feel when you smile at me I love when you send me a kiss My friendship love Forever you and me

Oh my love for you what a feeling I look into your eyes and I know who I am I know who you are from the way you kiss me The first time I saw you The first time we laughed together They were the best moments of my life

I love you like no other My love for you I want to know forever I see the way you look at me I love those moments when I catch you staring at me I’ll follow you where ever you go You’re in my heart no matter how far apart we are

Oh my love for you is that kiss on my cheek I sleep so peacefully when you’re next to me I dream in colour I love you in colour Never have I known such love could be as good You and me what a feeling

I love that our love started so young They said it would never last I knew the day I saw you it was forever you and me My love for you only grew Our colours grew brighter Our dreams got bigger

Oh my love for you is forever It’s a magic everyone should know Some are lucky twice But I’m happy with just this once My love for you never too much Never to young it was

You were hand picked for paradise The paradise on this earth and the ones with the Gods You lived your life unapologetically Filled with laughter and even filled with tears Your loneliness was paramount I could see it Your heart yearning for love I could feel it Your body ached for a loving touch I saw you

You were hand picked for paradise of the world of songs and music For a world where you could be free to be yourself In a world still yet unsure of itself I knew you well I loved you well as you loved me so We were friends Lovers in another world Lovers in another life I saw you see me in the mix of who you were

You were hand picked for paradise of a world that still remembers you In a world you never knew In a world that may have been more forgiving of you You were my friend We remember you has you were I sometimes see you here and there I sometimes feel you next to me The sound of your voice on the radio sooths me Photos of you are always in view

I loved you then I love you still my friend My lover, my best friend You were hand picked for a paradise just for you

Here I am standing tall and bright Looking forward and into the light I like the sound of the silent all around I’m a on a platform of the ride of my life

No two birds the same fly by with wingspans as wide as the sky With ease they glide into the horizon, into the center of the sun It’s neither day, neither night I’m in between the moon rise and the sun rise I’m on a platform of the end of a life

A new life arises, a new moon rise and new sun rise Where in the circle of life am I How did I begin, how did I end I’m on a road leading me onto a platform where I’ve never been A bird returns and lands on my head

There is no sound, no light ahead The bird waits for the rise of the new moon and the new sun Wait in this moment, sang the bird My feet feel wet I’m in the sea I’m on a platform with no beginning or end

A peacock floats by, a second and a third And on and on they fill the sea To my surprise I’m walking on water To my surprise I’m on platform where no man has gone before And I’m still alive and doing well So magnificent is my life So magnificent is the ride of my life

I walk in the shadow of your love So far I’ve come Is this where I belong in a story of love I seek myself in the bliss of what I believed was love Oh please let me see the difference and let me know how to find it It’s all but blur in the shadow of your love

Nowhere or any time did you say I love you Nowhere or any time did you say I do not love you You held me so well and you kissed me like no other I believed you and every tender moment I gave you all that was me, all that was true I’ve come so far on my own to find myself in the shadow of your love

What a place to be when you know no differently Do you remember me the one you held so close The one you said to I will never let you go You let go and now I find myself in the shadow of your love

Is there anything left for me to hang onto, to grip What were those words you said to me that made me believed you loved me What were those things you did to me that made me feel you loved me Where did you go and what did you do to leave me in the shadow of your love

It’s so brilliant what you’ve done What mystery you’ve created I see it now and I want to know how it’s done Life never goes in one direction Thank goodness for that Only now can I say hooray to that

Life never goes the same way twice It may seem as so but when I looked closely I’ve stepped on a different road It may not be as I hoped Sometimes better, sometimes worse But I never cease to take a good look at where it goes

I found my magic in my line of sight Life never goes in a spiral unless I made it so I jumped through hoops and skipped a step I’ve turned back the clock to find it tick-tock back ahead Hooray for what sets me forward

I dive into the deep end where life never goes without my soul No matter what I’ve done No matter who I’ve hurt Life never goes beyond what I know What I see, unless I make it so

For good or bad, life never goes on without me Against me, or for just me Life never goes astray I’m the writer of my life Life never goes to far from me Never goes into a spiral unless I make it so

Sing me a song of what’s love to you Let me hear the melody of your heart I drum to the beat of your heart You’re my divine existence My divine inspiration of love to me

To sing me a song of what’s love to you Is a message from heaven From all the angels of love All that I know is you All that is in me is you

What’s love to you Is there ever too much love You’re never too far away from me You never went wrong with you and me Never torn between what could be

And it seems you’re always on the edge of sunshine Never too bright, always by the light Just right in your own light What’s love to you in your darkest days I’ve seen you cry How can this ever be made up to you

What’s love to you Does it make you alive Or does it kill you Sing to me your melody Let me know your heart as it ought to be As you know it and want it to be

What’s love to you No fooling What’s love to you You’re eyes can tell no lie Sing me your glory of what is love to you

Gonna ride a train and see the world I’m gonna find the magic at every stop I’m gonna see the world Smell every flower and shake every hand And give away every smile

I’m gonna see the world with eyes wide open With heart bursting wide And listen for the trail of laughter Follow the sunrise to sunset And keep rolling on that train to see the world

I’ll be as good as I can I’ll play and laugh as I see all the world When I hear that whistle blower I’ll jump on the next train I’ll see the world in all its glory In style with a smile

And if there’s any unexpected stops I’ll jump I’ll live all the way and listen for that whistle No blues along the way Just tap dance along the rail with a smile on my face I’m seeing the world in style

I travel with pride to see this world of ours I’m making all my memories, even the ones that make me cry I’m gonna see the world with eyes wide open I may lose a sweetheart here and there but one will stick along the way I’m gonna see all the world

Creating my sweetest memories All dreams are in my hands I’m seeing the world for the first time No misery on this ride I’m seeing the world in style I hear the whistle blowing Time to go see the world

It’s just a matter of fact that without you I’m lost I’m lost in space with no compass to point me in any direction It’s just a matter of truth that you light up my day Without you I’m just a drop of water in the vast sea

It’s all but a blur when you’re not with me I look for you in everything I see I feel your warmth when you sat in this chair I feel your touch when you slept in our bed

Without you a fog lingers all around me I follow your voice in the mist The smell of your perfume lets me know you’re there I’ve come to you when you called I’m here to continue this journey with you

Wake up my darling I know you can hear me I know you can feel my touch Stay here with me Without you there’s no where to go You can make it my darling, just follow the sound of my voice

Follow me this time Take my hand for without you I can’t make it on my own Wake up my darling, it’s not your time I know because the way you’re holding my hand I know you can hear my voice

There’s something to be said for a love such as ours Without you our history of love is forgotten You’re smile tells me you’ve decided to return to me I’ll be here when you wake up my darling For without you love will cease to be

I was born in the land of plenty I saw many come and go The whole world at our fingertips How can this be to be so free Live light Live in ecstasy Jumping through hoops ceased Taking orders gone Giving orders vanished How can this be to breeze through life Windows of opportunities everywhere you see No bumps in the road No hunger pains of desires You’re wish is my command What you ask is what you get How can this be to see such a world To want for nothing To take from no one Dismantling the seven deadly sins Lust abolished Gluttony extinguished Greed denied Sloth forbidden Wrath unwarranted Envy no more Pride subsided How can this be in a world of human beings How can this be a world of no wonder Can we marvel at the expected Is there sensation in the knowing Is there curiosity in only goodness Would there be spectacular in such a life How could this be amazed admiration for wanting to live To know where to find the surprise To know everything that will be How could this be

Hmm, ya, what’s going on Stuck for so long in this place called love She won’t have me but I can’t stop thinking of her They say move on but my heart is stuck on her I play my guitar and sing her my love song

Oh ya, stuck for so long She won’t even look at me How do I win her heart Stuck on her for so long I’m blind to all others

My best friend said did you tell her you’re sweet on her Did you let her know you exist Does she know you’re name You’re stuck for so long in the story you created of her

I could not argue with my friend I went to the supermarket where she worked When I got to her check out I looked up at her and smiled Each day I returned On the seventh day I told her my name It was the end of her shift and I waited for her outside the store

She smiled at me and asked me how was I doing today I played this game for a while She continued to smile at me until she said I had to walk her home Stuck for so long in me Stuck for so long in the creation of her

The next summer we were married It’s been fifty years and I’m still stuck on her For so long I played my guitar and sang her my long Every morning she smiles at me Every night I kiss her goodnight

What is it that I’ve been doing What is it that I’ve not been seeing What is it that I’ve not been feeling Don’t you know how much I need you All those things were the foolish silly me

Can I be forgiven now that I know differently Now that I can love differently Now that I see differently Don’t you know how much I need you I know that wasn’t so for so long This time I saw you cry

How much I need you to be happy And if you want me to go I’ll go As long as it makes you happy That’s how much I love you How much I need you to be happy

I’ll do whatever say I’ll stay, I’ll go It’s your heart that decides How much I need you to feel love is all I want How much I need you to feel alive is all I want You’re the love of my life

Can I say I’m sorry, again Can I say you deserve better, again Can I say how much I need you to fall in love To hear you laugh To see you giddy is how much I need you to smile How I need you to know how much I love you

Right through my heart the piercing pain of strangers all around All I can do is surrender to their will To their love No more strangers all around What come and goes What’s said and done A lifetime alone with everyone I know I surrender to the strangers all around

I fall apart at the sight of me My heart searches for some relief My lips wondered what a gentle kiss feels like All I can do is surrender to the strangers all around Those I kept as strangers for so long No one ever showed me what real love feels like To such love I surrender to my strangers all around me

The sentimental moments of this life unfair to me only All around me surrendering to the thieves of my love To loveless lives of abounding sadness To a life of knowingly taking from me My innocence once hid me Unhappy with my situation I never looked away Until I returned to the ones I made strangers all around

I faced the blues of all I knew, of all I hurt Especially me, so see me, to face me Become familiar with the stranger I’ve created Let me back into my own heart Forgive my innocence stolen from me Strangers all around I’ve created They talked of me only with love

Strangers all around made of love Protected my innocence until I believed I broke free Their reach saved me, my strangers all around me Strangers all around created a way back home for me Once those I kept as strangers all around me

It’s the darkness that lead me to you To the light in my heart not seen or felt for so long I never knew it was there Could be found in the dark

The light in my heart so soft your glow So gentle your warmth You flicker with the beat of my heart Even when it wanted to stop You kept the light on in the depth of my soul The darkest corners of my life

Like magic you appeared I missed the trick to where I could disappear forever Never to be seen again The light in my heart appeared when I could see me You entered without my noticing before I let go You watched me from inside my heart knowing where I would go

In such a lonely place where darkness prevailed Where all life dwindled away No where be found, no desire to be seen Light of my heart tricked me to seeing whose there To see where I was And to feel no more my despair

The cringe on my face now mimics a smile I know I’ll make it one day I remember a smile on my face I recall the light in my heart I know the days of no dark clouds all around And the day I stepped on my shadow wishing I was gone

The light in my heart how far you’ve gone How far I’ve sent you away only to return Only to bring a smile on my face To know a true feeling of happiness in my glory of being me In my life, as I once wanted to be To know me in the light of my heart

It’s one of those days All seems well and looks ok Then I realized I’m standing on my head No wonder everything seems just as it should be A different view, a new perspective

As a matter of fact I’m getting used to this new life In need of all that’s new including love But I’ll keep my old friends It’s a beautiful day in this upside down world I’ve created Standing on my head makes it so easy to see

When I’m in need of anything standing on my head is what’s needed The others see me from where I stand Others try to flip me back on my feet They say it’s for my own good But I always land standing on my head

There’s just always more than two ways about it I’ve had my share of unfulfilled dreams not to go a different way Not to live from the perspective I can actually see But now it’s time to dismiss all that kept me spinning on my head Never seeing, all unravelling Now I’m making this right, standing on my head for all the world to see For me to see all the world All that makes up this world all around me

Oh, now what view to see upside down to make it right Let me be on my axis for as long as I want to see To see no more troubled days To exploit all the strangest days and rejoice in them from where I stand Standing on my head, thank goodness Standing on my head, the best view in the house

There I was flopped over my bed The floor stared back at me Dust bunnies swirled around dancing from one end of the room to the next I looked beneath my bed and there I was staring back at me A sea of empty bottles pushed up through the bed springs

I’ve seen the bottom of many bottles Ten for each day of my life it seems I remember the dry days and looking up at the stars Then I was gone again diving deep in the bottom of my favourite bottle Never disappointing this fine bottle of mind Until it led me to the twelve steps I’ve been at this doorstep many times before

I wasted my time over step one over and over again I admitted nothing even when the words came out of my mouth I believed in no greater power I made no decisions to turn my will, my life to the Gods I made no moral inventory of myself I admitted nothing to the Gods I held my defects close to me, no God could take them away I asked nothing of a God to remove my shortcomings I listed all whom I had harmed but said nothing I made no amends to them or myself I ignored my personal inventory and never admitted when I was wrong I sought nothing from prayer I had no spiritual awakening except when I see the bottom of the bottle

I saw the sun go down I cried, cried and cried some more Then I was back seeing the bottom of the bottle I was overwhelmed with my shame I found no comfort in my own soul I tried to see anything other than the bottom of the bottle Then one day I had to choose which view would remain with me forever I cried some more staring at the bottle in my hand I praised it and forgave it I thank it for the journey but wanted to walk alone now I wasted no time to get back to step one I admitted everything when my words came out of my mouth I believed in me I made the decision for my will, for my life I sketched the moral inventory of my new path I admitted to the Gods, my higher self who I was and wanted to be I held my defects close to my heart and forgave myself I asked everything of me I hugged all whom I harmed, and me I made amends first to my heart and soul and family and friends I said when I was wrong I sought everything from my inner prayer, my highest self I experienced my spiritual awakening when I see the bottle staring back at me

I see the bottom of the bottle in my dreams I see my dreams when I stare back at the bottle and walk away I walk alone with this bottle at my side, tapping me on the shoulder I say thank you for my dreams, and goodbye my old friend

I find myself in the land where all the shadows align In a place of wonder and illusion where wizards reside I search for the homeland where the shadow of my soul resides Which of the wizards am I Shadow of my soul forgotten Shadow of my soul the wonderer Shadow of my soul the illusionist

In the backyard of my dreams where the lights dim In the foreground of my imagination where the sun rises In the shadow of my soul where I lay my head to rest How far do I need to go to forgo the light that casts a shadow on my soul What’s the illusion of this show Who is the imaginarium of my puppet show

In the shadow of my soul I step aside I stand still, I watch my shadow dance left to right I look beyond the setting sun into the heavens far and wide Unusual sight these peacocks flying by The puppeteer of my imagination stands near Stepping into the shadow of my soul I look up and find my hands on the strings

In the shadow of my soul I look down at my feet Tap dancing to the strings Catching a glimpse of my illusion The wizard reveals the magic The illusion dismantled In the shadow of my soul I look behind the curtain I am the forgotten wizard The wonderer and my illusion

Hmm, ya, this feels good What’s this passion I feel Where does it come from How was it discovered Hmm, ya, this passion feels so good

Such a desire for ones story The rage of my curiosity The fervour of my human nature Hmm, ya, what’s this passion unleashing my hunger It leaves me thirsty for more

Where in my appetite did I experience such intense emotions Strong desires of a funny enthusiasm My outburst of feelings for what this passion feeds me I fall on my knees to meet my craving To lust over my oddity to know what lies beneath and all around me

Hmm, ya, what’s this passion that urges me to wipe the muck from my eyes Who is the object of my desire What is the object of my passion Where can I find those emotions What’s this passion so well hidden inside of me

Do I dare reveal it Do I dare discover its secrets How did this become possible to know oneself so well What’s this passion for feeling good For focusing on self For loving thyself in the midst of a discovery What’s this passion for me and you

How well I’ve fallen just to see what lies ahead What crippling belief I’ve unearth about myself, about you What’s this passion I’ve discover What a way to end a life What a way to start again