Where Do I Stand

And there in lies the evil of all this believing in something bigger than yourself Follow your conscious Follow your instincts And really, who’s the puppet Who’s really controlling the strings And all this time you thought it was you Well, I’m the biggest fool of them all for believing otherwise Now where do I stand in all this mess It’s a mess alright Where do I stand on the curve of my own pendulum I’ve swung so far one way and just as far the other I’ve put my faith into it all, especially myself And woops I find myself right back where I began So is this where I stand Always at the start line with just a few more belongings But really nothing gained Where do I stand amongst all those around me They seem happy, but they don’t What did I miss What did I do wrong to end up in my pile of shit It all looks good on the outside But you wouldn’t dare peek inside You won’t like what you find I assure you You don’t want to be where I’m standing What I’m looking at The constant pounding The constant planning to end it The constant disbelieving all dreams Even the ones lived So where do I stand With me, or with reality